Saturday, August 11, 2012

this is dev ...

















... who was born in bangladesh but has lived in london since 1953 ... we often chat on a bench on clapham common ... he struggles heroically with mortality and despair and the fog of memory ... he is a disciplined exerciser of the body, still, but not the mind ... neither of us think there is a heaven or an afterlife ... i think that the only afterlife is the one we instinctively invent for those that we most love and miss ... dev finds it hard to concentrate nowadays but occasionally he shows the origins of his spiritual roots when he asks that ancient rhetorical question "why are the gods punishing us ?" ... today we failed to agree a viewpoint on the subject of justice ... i am more interested in the due processes of inquiry after the crime and during the trial than in whether the culprit is punished ... the example i used was tony blair, who has yet to stand trial for "blithely unleashing the dogs of war" on innocent civilians ... i don't care if blair lives or dies but i fancifully want him to visit the scenes of his crime and to understand and acknowledge the consequences of his folly ...


http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_dogs_of_war_(phrase)

... and then we discovered this reminder on our pathway back towards home


Monday, August 6, 2012

3BT


In the middle of the night, the humidity relieved by a cooling breeze, a girl in the flimsiest of summer dresses gets off the bus at the same stop and asks if she can use my phone because hers is dead and she has mislaid her boyfriend.  Sweet voiced.  Sweetly perfumed.  She stands too close to me.  Is it my imagination or can I feel the heat rising from her body against my cheek ?  She also gives off  that other scent ... of one who will never know when to stop drinking.


Coming homewards in the afternoon, a very black skinned woman is sitting in the seat across the aisle from mine.  She is tall and muscular and has the up-turned-est nose you ever saw.  She sits erect, head back so that the prominent cheekbone extends in a long horizontal line from the middle of the ear to just below the eye and  you can see her face's every sinew moving beneath the skin. She is knitting, with ferocioius dedication.  Extremely long slender fingers drawing thin scarlet wool from a carrier bag in her lap and row after row of tiny identical stitches forming with unflinching certainty.  My mother used to knit, freestyle, artistically, and so I watch, fascinated now, with both pleasure and pain.


Wearily, I open the door of our empty flat and discover a fat envelope from Spain, addressed in a lively script to Señor Tristan Forward, and I am rejuvenated.




Saturday, August 4, 2012

there was no evidence of human sacrifice when i approached the sacriligious artefact ...

























... there was a slight delay ... they had to deflate it after vainly trying to re-join the two halves ... and then there was happiness all around ... and there's a nice new cafe in the newly landscaped park, too ...























http://festival.london2012.com/events/9000963231

http://www.southwark.gov.uk/info/461/a_to_z_of_parks/1293/burgess_park/1

http://www.southwark.gov.uk/downloads/download/1053/lda_design_for_burgess_park

going underground ...























... on my way from clapham common to burgess park

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

you might say i was fond of music ...


3BT


Wages are credited to my empty account.

I turn off the engine in the dairy farm yard and sit quietly watching the resident swallows flying around only six inches above the concrete.

I stop the truck and switch off the engine once more in a narrow country lane as seven schoolgirls squeeze by on their nervous ponies, and I try not to smirk as I recall those Thelwell cartoons.